cerita fd

Hati Itu

2011-11-25T23:42:00.002+08:00

Hati itu sudah lama tiada
Hati itu sudah lama kosong
Hati itu sudah lama pergi
Hati itu sudah lama mati

Maafkan empunya hati
Andai suatu hari nanti
Ia berhenti beraksi

Maafkan empunya hati
Andai suatu hari nanti
Ia tidak berupaya kembali

Maafkan empunya hati
Andai hati itu adalah hati ini

- bye :D

Goodbye Lullaby

2011-11-25T23:26:00.002+08:00

I do not know how we started
but will definitely remember how we ended

- Oct 25, 2011 // 3:ooam

there are so many million times

2011-03-08T22:14:00.002+08:00

there are so many million times
when i just have to hide behind
acting like everything is alright
and the truth is not so bright

there are so many million times
when my heart is crying inside
wishing that everything is alright
but things aint gonna be your side

there are just so many million times
that i keep on letting my heart; broke apart.

worth waiting.

2011-02-19T19:01:00.001+08:00

things that are worth waiting for are those that can bring you smile.

with a little heartache, of course ;)

luahan rasa.nukilan jiwa

2011-01-05T18:43:00.002+08:00

yes, it was mine. but i gave it up to someone else. a stranger. and yes, i know about this long time ago.

so dont come up to me and tell me this and that. to fight over my rights. and what so ever. i've decided to let it be.

hello january,
not a good start, ey? final sem is super duper busy. like super duper gila babs macam harams punya busy.

bye.

happy birthday to you;p

2010-12-19T00:54:00.004+08:00

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to cik nyssa,
happy birthday to youuu!!!!

*tiup-tiup lilin ni hah! hahaha

happy birthday cik nyssa. May Allah bestow on you and your family His blessings and wish you all the best in many years to come and semoga cepat-cepat jadi dentist =)

____________________________________________________

this was taken on my sister's engagement day (nov 13, 2010) and why oh why laa this particular gambar?

sebab terasa kurus.hahhaha. ke nak gambar gedik?

okay.okay. here's the gedik pic of mine. candid okay. tak sengaja nak gelak besar. and terkeluar laa gigi degil ku. that's why i need cik nyssa to cepat-cepat habis belaja. tapi by that time, i dah tak kisah pun pasal gigi ni.hahhaha. even now pun tak heran. walaupun laa orang banyak kata macam-macam pasal gigi degil tu, tapi bila kakakku kata okay, so it should be okay laa kan? buat apa nak heran orang cakap kan? heheh ;p

goodnight, loves! =)

hai. hello

2010-12-11T21:37:00.002+08:00

hello december, i love you.

hahha.tak pasal. okay. im done with my industrial training on 30th nov. and been busy with bibik-ing around. i cant wait for next year. i just cant wait for next semester. it will be my last, insyaAllah.

one of friends from diploma days has just got engaged. congratulations intan. it was on 20th NOV though -_-" . ku tau ku memang lambat. hehe.

oh.oh.oh.this email came in yesterday :
"Friendster Reminder - anyssa blurbs's Birthday is Coming Up..."

=))))))))

happy birthday, i terus on fs right after that. tp tak jumpa when is the exact date. takpe2, i percaya i still have time to cari your birthdate and nnti you dapat la random birthday wish dari i =))

berdosa

2010-11-04T12:03:00.002+08:00

sesungguhnya aku manusia yang berdosa. kita selalu lupa. kita suka take things for granted. what if, one day, they are gone. baru tau langit tu tinggi ke rendah. sungguh aku sangat berdosa.

aku tidak sempurna. memang ada secara tidak sengajanya perlakuan ini muncul. walau di hati, mereka memaafkan, tapi tu side mereka. kita tetap harus mencuba untuk tidak berbuat demikian.

"Jangan sesekali membuatkan bapa menitiskan air mata. Diriwayatkan dari Ibnu Umar r.a, dia berkata, bersabda Rasulullah bermaksud: “Tangis kedua orang tua termasuk penderhakaan.” (Hadis riwayat Bukhari)"

sending failed

2010-10-31T21:34:00.003+08:00

oh.i.hate.that!!

it's either you're running out of credit or the person you're trying to reach is currently not available (off phone, out of service, etc).

i seriously hate that.

*oh wait, that person has another number. i shall text the message to the number, then. oh crap! i forgot the number :(*

sumpah bangang! aku nak cepat sial. ada 2 phones kalau nak off bagai, campak je kat laut. (on a positive side, mungkin batt kong) haih~

Itulah Sayang

2010-10-31T14:22:00.000+08:00

tanya sama hati, pernahkah merindu, ingat masa lena apa mimpimu, masa berjauhan apa nan dikenang, bila difahamkan, itulah sayang =)

Itulah Sayang #tributepramlee

making this like tumblr

2010-10-23T21:10:00.001+08:00

and still. my tumblr will remain a secret. for now =)

"Today, give a stranger one of your smiles. It might be the only sunshine he sees all day." -- Quoted in P.S. I Love You

DamnItsTrue

2010-10-23T21:07:00.000+08:00

Protect her, fight for her, kiss her, love her, or laugh with her. But don't make her fall, if you don't plan to catch her! #DamnItsTrue

RT-ed

2010-10-17T21:18:00.001+08:00

RT-ed from twitter @fararasep :

@PMOMalaysia Msia PM Press Office
by @fararasep
Import duty and sales tax exemption on broadband equipment are also extended for two years until 2012. #budget2011

good news ey? tapi 2 smartphones for a student is a bit too much kan?

kebal

2010-10-13T12:52:00.003+08:00

perisai itu tersangat kebal
tidak ada satu perkara mampu menembusnya
melainkan bila kuasa alam terlibat sama
aku ciptakan sendiri untuk aku kuat
atas alasan,
tidak bisa apa datang menusuk

aku gila kan kekebalan itu!
mendongak langit aku kerana nya.

ibarat cerita "Santa Clause"
Ice tidak mampu ditandingi
tapi ditangani dengan kasih sayang
lantas, cair
.
.
.
.
kini,
perisai itu kian tipis

tidak,
bukan dari kuasa sihir

tidak,
bukan dari hentaman padu bertalu-talu

tidak,
bukan dari kedatangan kuasa luar

tetapi,
dari pencipta perisai itu sendiri.

dear new friend

2010-10-11T08:34:00.002+08:00

i just have to post this.

to you, new friend, i know my friend is not the best of friend you've ever had. either my friend just messed things up or you're just overreacted. just move on la. it's for the better kot.

take some time

2010-10-09T10:33:00.002+08:00

dear friends,

im gonna take some time and view all of my fb's older posts and copy all of my status updates that i think and feel could be useful enough for you, readers and paste them here. kena cari masa yang betul-betul free. obviously bukan dari tahun 2007. jenuh kot.

question is : when will i ever have that free time of mine? =)

it's for me to know. you tak payah laa find out. penat je tunggu. dah post nanti baca laa, tak post, gi baca kat tempat lain ;))

till then,
fara

a piece of shit and advice

2010-10-05T10:55:00.003+08:00

this explains my feeling right now. you can imagine it the way you want. it's either i feel like killing myself or kill others. this shite is giving me headache.

on the other story:
if, one day, you feel like being cheated on, being fooled on, or whatever feelings that resulted to heartache, my advice to you;

time is the best healer. you'll get the pain but it keeps you stronger.

and of course, you need friends to support you. or not. it's up to you. in my case, i dont really tell my friends. when it comes to its peak point baru i let it out.

but seriously, time helps. it kills your heart out, BUT, you'll get better and stronger. so at least, you'll be stronger and know how to control yourself for the second time (not hoping for it though, tapi manusia suka second chances =))

edited: oh wait!!! i started to realize that time is the best healer after i listened to this one song. i mean, really listen to it. selama ni tak heran. it's Better In Time by Leona Lewis. tak semestinya broken-hearted punya story, like i said earlier, anything that relates to heart-ache.

till then;
=)

title : a piece of shit and advice. advice laaa sangat.haha

ikut hati mati.ikut rasa binasa

2010-09-25T11:25:00.002+08:00

hati kita pada haikatnya
Mahu lebih dari yang sepatutnya
Hati kita pada hakikatnya
Benar-benar salah daripada mulanya
Hati kita pada hakikatnya
Akan cuba menegakkan keadilan tipunya

Percaya pada diri
Kepada yang asal kita kembali
Jawapannya ada, cuma harus mencari
InsyaAllah kembali ketenangan diri.

I am truly blessed that i'vd found my answer.

Moral:jangan terlalu mengharap dan meminta lebih pada yang bukan hakiki. Kita mungkin sudah terbiasa dgn kewujudannya tapi tidak semestinya kita memilikinya. Jangan terlalu ikutkan hati dan perasaan. Selfish namanya tu. Ikut hati, mati. Ikut rasa, binasa. Tapi jangan pula hidup dalam denial.

i am.okay

2010-09-25T08:20:00.002+08:00

i am now okay. not in the state of confusion anymore. we talked about it. and im truly blessed that he is still a good friend of mine. sorry buddy,ur not in the same level as azri and izzy where i can forgive you at any time. and i am glad that the feelings i mentioned earlier have nothing to do with love,third party, or any other that are related to serious relationship or shall i say commitment.

what kind of confusion that im talking about??will let you know in the next post. or maybe not ;)

ready utk beraya kita. lets lets!

damn it!

2010-09-22T12:27:00.002+08:00

confused!!!!

These feelings are killing me. Trapped in my on promise. I said it's okay, but deep down, turned out to be not okay. I said he's wrong for what he did. Im on her side. Tapi, when he's with her, aku nak ada perasaan pelik. Apahal wei?? Apa aku nak sebenarnya?? I just have to learn not to rely on this particular person la kot. Im not going to hate but learn to live without having this normality, instead la kot. Thats the best thing to do as for right now. Bye.

raya oh yeah - yuna

2010-09-09T02:06:00.003+08:00

Yuna - Raya Oh Yeah from Luey Motion Lab on Vimeo.

RT-ed from my twitter:
@yunamusic @azamfuat myo and hanafi sangat cute dalam part "hati seperti bunga api" hehehe. repeating it over and over again.haha

cute sangat!!! and i lovvveee cik jetfuel aka yuna's kurung =)

pending instruction

2010-09-08T12:25:00.001+08:00

as you guys know, i am more comfortable with guy friends as compared to girls. and my circle of friends is not big. im not being snob, but only these ppl that i trust the most. but still, im always open to new ones but not new close friends. i dont want to waste my time. takes time tau nak buat kawan ni.

one of my fav boys is currently on his holiday and another one is always here but i've been very very extremely busy. so didnt really have much time for them. it will always be like "im free-youre not-youre free-im not". but thx to those things called fb,ym and mobile phones.

finally, we've had our iftar together at samsaraa restaurant, on the very last week of puasa T_T and still tak complete. to lya amilia, we shall meet up time raya nnti yer.

to azri, izzy, lya, ned, fad, wanie - thank you for being there when im in need =))

"true friendship is not being inseperable, it's being separated but nothing changes"

- love you ppl with all my heart and soul!!~

just a random thought.

2010-08-31T02:13:00.003+08:00

akan lebih indah sesuatu jalan cerita itu jika ia mampu memberi kepastian.

contohnya, mencintai Allah
melakukan suruhan
meninggalkan larangan
pasti ada habuan.

contohnya, mencintai suami
jalan pintas bagi kita, sang wanita
untuk kembali ke tempatNya
keindahan syurga.

kita hanya perlu menjaga sebaiknya
memelihara sebaiknya
memberi nyawa sebaiknya
bersabar setinggi-tingginya.

maka,
jangan ditanya mengapa aku masih menunggu,
aku percaya jodoh telah lama ada menunggu
aku hanya menunggu waktu

bila sampai seru
aku laku

tidak perlu aku buang masa
dengan perkara yang sementara cuma
bercinta sini sana
yang tak tentu membawa kemana.

*just a random thought. im not trying to be an ustazah here.

bestfriends

2010-08-30T16:16:00.001+08:00

i am blessed to have such beautiful bestfriends. yes, with their one kind of attitude each, it really makes me sick at times. but deep down, i know that i love them more than anyone else.

geramnya!

2010-08-27T15:49:00.000+08:00

still tak jadi. i da dpt msg from mxs saying that the AP apa entah is now bbnet. pastu try on kat opera ni, still tak jadi. ada ubah setting apa apa yang lain ke? geramnya!

last post

2010-08-24T10:36:00.003+08:00

i was so selak kera back at the last post when i got this super duper cool info from cik nyssa and decided to give it a try right away.

Well,guess what? I wrote the last post by using the opera app but with my wifi cnnction T_T

Im not saying that cik nyssa gave me wrong info but maybe im just too 'smart' and 'creative' in changing all those settings that are not suppose to be changed. Gonna try again, tonight! Haha.bongok kau ni, fara. Adoi la. Selak kera.

2010-08-22T03:05:00.001+08:00

hello readers,
been updating my blog from office, lately. out of boredom. and that's pretty obvious =)

but still,didnt get the chance to read all the posts written by you ppl. so yeah, i've decided to read all updates today and this one post really got my attn. the one that has my name in it=)

thx to cik nisa, now i can go online for free. still trying to get myself used to this qwerty thingy though.hehe

and i can proudly say that im writing this from my nokia 5800 without using my wifi just to make sure that it is free. betul wei, it is free sbb my cdt balance was rm0 before i started this mini experiment and still is -_-"

okeylah. stop membatakkan diri.penat kot hehe.

goodnight, world!

dont say something stupid.

2010-08-15T01:20:00.002+08:00

people tend to say something stupid when they are mad. i know, that's life. but somehow, you just have to get used not to say things like that and start to think before you say it out loud. if your words hurt my mother's feeling, you know that you are in a big trouble. don't worry, i will not hurt you physically. mak tak ajar bukan-bukan =)

as much as you think of me being so disrespectful to you, i just hope you know that i cant live without having you around.

to Shafiq Hussein, im really sorry. your Ibu is now with her Creator. sabar banyak-banyak and be strong. if you need me, just text me okay? Al-Fatihah. your Ibu, Shahnaz Fadhli, Arwah Acuman, Arwah Atuk, Arwah Nenek and all the deceased, they will always be in my prayers. kuat!

2 in one.

2010-08-14T15:30:00.004+08:00

i found out!
by my own.
maybe they thought i would care.
when im not at all.

on the other story;
told ya~
that 'you' will find me.
even if im left all alone without any news for so long.

back to the first story.
i lied.
yes, i dont care at all.
but somehow, this feeling inside of me,
it tells me that i actually care.
i dont mind, at all.
seriously,
but dont keep it a secret.
i just dont understand why must you keep it as a secret?
there must be something about it.
taknak kita orang terasa?
oh, come on!
we are 23 kan?
act like one.

till then,
selamat berpuasa to my Muslim readers =)

i feel stupid, i feel dumb

2010-08-04T11:24:00.002+08:00

sumpah rasa bengong. and why is that?

because, im assigned to do the audit report for Company X. but due to the outstanding matters and late replies from client, the boss asked me to put in on hold and start to do other companies' audit reports. and now that im done with those audit reports for others, im back to audit Company X though they still have not reply any of the outstanding matters.

the problem is that, now, ~~i dont know or~~ i cant even remember (that's better) what is the issue of this company!!

tuh je.

okethxbai.

easy come, easy go

2010-08-01T13:25:00.003+08:00

easy come, easy go.
we know by the phrase,
it means, it's just temporary.

you went away.
far, far away.
can't even be reached,
and i am left alone.

but still,
to you, i am still someone close.
you'll come if you need me.
the first reference ever,
i am blessed for that.

i am truly happy that you're happy

to make it easier,
for us,
you and i,
let me put it this way,
i'll let you go for as far as you want,
i won't stop you,
i've never stopped you,
and will never be.

just go,
and come back,
whenever you think you want,
like i said - like cheryl cole said,
"there's always a place in me that you can call home"

or even yuna's Decorate,
just listen to the song, okay?

but still,
i'm keeping my distance.
_________________________________________

on another story:
"It hurts to fall in love with a friend, you keep hiding your feelings, for fear of losing a friend and a love you never had" - Maria Azman

-hello, August! =)

the 44th follower

2010-07-13T23:57:00.004+08:00

hello there, mirot.

and hello there readers and other followers as well =) ,

welcome to cerita fd. im sorry that i cant update my blog regularly like before. too busy with internship and all. i dont even have time for myself.

there will be no merepek merapu post in anytime soon. but, the good thing of being busy is that im back to my jiwa-jiwa mode. insyaAllah there will be more on my jiwa-jiwa posts whenever i have my free time.

till then,
goodnight love(s)!
=)

*edited:punya lah takde masa and penat sampai bila check balik, banyak benar typo nya =)

you.

2010-07-11T18:41:00.002+08:00

you are close,
so close.

and you are not together.

but somehow,
the weird feeling is just there,
when you are used to it.
so used to it.

now,
you have to make sure,
you are okay
by not having another you around.

my current ym status.

2010-06-27T23:19:00.002+08:00

i dont really want to post this up. but this is some kind of message from me to you *fill in your name*

uncle passed away last isra' mikraj (20/7/2009) and this year's isra' mikraj falls on 10/7/2010. 10 days earlier. and 20th july 09 was the beginning of death news i've ever received. directly related or indirectly related. and ever since, i've received quite a number of death news. almost every month, there were approx. 2-3 person left this world. accidents. brutality. bullied cases. and so. and it scares me till now. macam musim. and that musim ended on last april. and 20th july is just around the corner. time flies really fast. suratan or kebetulan, saya pun tak pasti. harap-harap, benda tarikh-tarikh ini semua kebetulan. apa-apa pun kita kena percaya kepada qada' dan qadar. bukan pada tarikh-tarikh tertentu. kun faya kun.

ym current status :
" this movie reminds me of death.my day could be tomorrow,sooner or later.in case im running out of my time, i just want to say that im sorry and i love each and everyone of you. =) "

God bless you all.

42 to 43

2010-06-09T00:38:00.003+08:00

to date, i have 43 followers, and i dont know who is the 43rd follower. susunan kat tepi blog ni macam tak betul je..

latest update T_T

2010-06-08T23:57:00.005+08:00

hello, loves!

it's been awhile kan? i've been seriously busy with practical and all (i've never had enough rest since the day i came back from jengka).this is my final year. but not my final sem :(

results will be out this week and i dont think im ready. wont check it until im really ready to face it. lagipun, working in accounting firm, and with this "year end" (closing accounts) thingy, it will somehow help me not to remember about it (the result, of course)

oh, remember why my blog's title is now cerita fd and no longer lrnj?

well, 20% of it was contributed by this faris guy. good news!!he's now a real blogger. no more silent blogger. ok, stop it fara. who are you to judge. sukati dia laa. well, i've decided to set aside my anger (anger ke?anger laa kot) since he has deleted the post that consisted my words. but the title is still there (-_-'). takpelah, meantime dia nak pakai, sukati dia lah. malas nak fikir. i've a lot of other things to think about. sementara takde idea pasal ayat-ayat hati punah sampah pecah punah ni, biar je laa kan.

so, till then
(next post will be on i-dont-know-when) ;p

edited:hahahha.this is soooo stupid. i really thought that he has deleted the post. ternyata, beberapa minggu tak bukak blogspot buat aku jadi tak reti baca blog. i forgot the "older posts" button. agak bangang disitu. hahahha. tapi, takpe lah =)

busy?not too busy. but been busy.

2010-05-13T11:20:00.002+08:00

hello, world.

cant believe myself that i didnt update my blog since 2nd may. 2ND MAY TU!!

im at work.
pelik?
yes. i am at work.

been busy.
so busy.
but not that busy.
tapi pretty busy.

didnt do anything tho. but came back home late at night. everyday. so, it's pretty busy i must say.

i'll update more when i have free time. when am i going to have my free time? it is when i have time to unpack my things that i brought back from jengka. the time when i get the time to wash my clothes by hands. and the time when i can declare a super-clean house day. that is the time when i'll be having my free time.

and itu sementara.
nanti practical.
and i will be having the same post as now.

till then, take care.
sila minum banyak air. cuaca sangat panas.

kita

2010-05-02T15:42:00.003+08:00

ee's status update on facebook "moving on from a bestfriend is harder than moving on from a boyfriend"

betul wei. tapi perempuan macam ni memang tak payah lah kita simpan lama-lama jadi bestfriend. penat lah. cakap tarak serupa bikin. tunggu dia dah okay, and kita pun dah reda, baru boleh sort things out.

till then,
2 more papers to go!!

sentap!

2010-04-29T21:42:00.001+08:00

i think i just lost one of my bestfriends. sorry dude, but i just wish that i never knew you. sumpah macam sial terasa habis. apa kau cakap selama ni semua rubbish.

semangat enough

2010-04-25T11:05:00.002+08:00

i hate it when i said that im going to update my blog right after my second paper has ended. well, again, i lied.

tp seriously, i was so semangat to share with the whole world on how my birthday was celebrated. tapi tuh lah. all the pics were taken by using my phone or even pakai camera biasa pun i will have the same problem which is, malas nak transfer masuk.

there goes the semangat away. berlari-lari sangat laju that no one can even kejar the semangat. pfft. lame kan!malas cakap je ah malas.hahha

p/s:cik nyssa punya cheese cake buat saya rasa mengidam.ahaha

nothing important (as if selama ni ada yg important)

2010-04-20T20:24:00.001+08:00

i just wanna have a post with today's date. tu je;))

will update more very soon. as soon as im done with my 2nd paper. masaku tak banyak. wish me luck for tomorrow's paper. weee!!

abnormal

2010-04-19T11:55:00.002+08:00

abnormal ;
- not typical, not usual, not normal, unnatural, insane

abnormal:

a guy who actually updated his fb status with "8 dating mistakes even smart women make" or something like "how to be a good girlfriend" when you actually had one but you dumped her because of your family. family comes first. fair enough.
a guy who knows the truth about the ex-girlfriend (she was ssoooo/ttoooo nice to him. her family as well) and talks nothing but only shits about the ex. (when you are the real shit here, smart ass)
a two years older guy who acts like 10 years younger and cry like a baby over his unbearable pains to a girl whom he knows for like 2 weeks?? sangat menagih simpati
a girl who actually lied all the times (oke, i tak tau all the times ke most of times ke, apa ke) for like 3 years but never get caught up! (that's the thing. no one knows. how cool is that??)

normal:

lelaki mana takde ego??taknak mengaku salah sendiri. they should write an article on how to be a good boyfriend laa. baru fair. and menangkan family when you know that it is not right is a big no no. its okay if you want to end your relationship because of your family. but pls dont give bullshits as your lame excuses saying this and that.
secondly, its you who ended your relationship with the most loyal person i've ever met! but you blame her for everything. you cheated on her since you got yourself to melaka. apa cerita? annoying sial kau. pastuh post macam-macam status as if kau tu baik sangat. poyo ada lah. how to do this laa how to do that lah. lain kali tanya how to change my attitude terus. lagi mau tak nak sedar ka? ni jenis lelaki yang tak nak ngaku salah or shall i say lelaki yang curang. normal la kan? (tapi tidak pula saya kata perempuan takde yang curang)
yang ni jenis lelaki yang suka mencari perhatian. menggedik sial!kau lelaki ke apa?!
perempuan hebat ni walau macam mana pun tetap dimaafkan. normal thing. and i dont even know why.

little urban kiosk and hanee's birthday

2010-04-19T11:49:00.003+08:00

i went to this place on friday. it was a last minute punya plan. this is fatin's little kiosk at tasik section 7 shah alam. had sneakers and oreo ice blended. gila babs sedap sampai aku minum dua-dua dalam 1 malam.

this is fatin and hanee. fb-ed hanee a few days earlier about lepaking at fad's place. tak plan sangat pun. but ended up, jumpa jugak. after like....entah, since hanee keluar uitm lah. which i dont know dah berapa tahun.

today, 19/4/2010 is hanee's birthday. so yeah, happy 22nd birthday hanee shereen chua ;))

jengka ku yang tersayang

2010-04-14T23:27:00.004+08:00

and oh i mean it!

seriously. kalau tak i wouldnt want to be transferred to jengka from kelantan masa mula-mula dulu kan? (tapi machang wasn't that bad pun. kecuali machang berbukit-bukau. boleh tonggek jadinya. tapi macam lah sempat masuk;p)

jengka ni boleh dikatakan the best place to study. kat hutan. jauh dari bandar and etc etc. walaupun terpaksa redah perjalanan yang berjam-jam. but hey, dah dekat 4 tahun setengah. kalau setakat setengah jam from tol to uitm is nothing la. tidur sekejap dah sampai uitm. hahha.and yes, im a kaki tidur. have to la. 4 tahun setengah tengok the same thing. penat lah!

tapi kan,

jengka juga ada rintangan-rintangan yang perlu dilalui. tapi kat mana-mana pun kan? masalah yang selalu ada kat jengka adalah takde electric and air. tapi saya boleh berbangga sebab saya sudah melalui 2 cabaran terhebat, lagi-lagi bila ketiadaan air. at least kepada seorang perempuan =)

pertama. bila memang dah terdesak nak membuang.
kedua. bila bulan sudah mengambang

pertama+kedua+tiada air=boleh sakit jantung.
tapi, bak kata cik nyssa, been there.done that ;))

(memang lah been there done that. memang aku tak pergi class terus. takkan nak pergi? gila kao?!!~)

sekian.

aku rasa macam nak sumpah kau!

2010-04-10T22:36:00.003+08:00

wtf man?

boleh tak bersyukur sikit and stop making me feel this way. i just dont like this feeling. im a normal human being. ada perasaan. tapi still kena mengalah sebab tak nak cari gaduh. tolonglah buka mata. stop underestimating me.

april baby

2010-04-01T20:21:00.002+08:00

yes!!april baby i am.

i had a great day of welcoming the month of april. everything went so well tadi =)

oh!memanglah ada kena mengena dengan my birthday. but then again, being 23 is nothing. seriously. cuma a year older. and alhamdulillah, masih diberi peluang untuk menebus segala kesalahan lalu.

im looking forward till my day comes. not because of it's 20th april. tp it's more to the beginning of the end of april. (serabut ayat aku.paham2 sendiri). i just want to see how much have i gained/improved/apa2 je lah throughout the months.

setiap hujung bulan akan datang kesedaran. how time flies. tapi manusia suka take things for granted. and i am not excluded.

till then,
take care of yourselves, people. bersyukur dengan apa adanya kita

=)

cik run araf mahukan pendapat.

2010-03-25T13:07:00.002+08:00

run araf : if you want to be with someone, it means that you want to create great future good history with that person. let the person be your friend. so that he understands your past.

but once he started to bring things up from your past and get pissed out of it, he is not meant for you. he is not your friend. he cant understand you that well. he dont have faith in you.

pendapat saya sahaja. if there's anything that i've missed out, do point out my mistake(s).

bukan cinta biasa

2010-03-23T00:22:00.001+08:00

22 March 2010

2010-03-22T21:50:00.001+08:00

happy birthday to you, encik Shahnaz Fadhli. hope you're doing fine up there. will always remember you in my prayers. Al-Fatihah (and Fatin is a tough lady, you know)

truth, cry and lie

2010-03-22T10:23:00.002+08:00

a red rose cheeks
a drop of tear to weep
reminds me of you.
a long side a sigh
a long side of cry

a soft summer rain, a smile that hides a pain
why should you be ashamed
cause in every life.
a little rain must fall

and you are my friend
charmingly sentimental brain
there’s truth behind a cry
and there’s a cry behind a lie
on every words that come out strong
just let them go and lets get along

on every grudge and every fight
i miss u all day and night
have you had your time off today
to bring a cup of tea and smile away

sometimes I wonder
will ever see you
without all your game plan
when all you have is
nothing but a pure bliss

i will wait that day
when you can find your way
out of this maze of love
and you can laugh
to see cries and lies
coz u know better than me
only the truth will set you free

there’s a truth behind a cry
and there’s a cry behind a lie
on every thought that come out wrong
just learn from it and please stay strong

on every grudge and every fight
i miss u all day and night
it’s not easy to understand
but you must hold on you stand

i know u know, u know i know

there’s a truth behind a cry
and there’s a cry behind a lie
on every thought that come out wrong
just learn from it and please stay strong

there’s a truth behind a cry
and there’s a cry behind a lie
there’s a hope on every fright
there’s a light on every night

syabas fara, syabas!

2010-03-18T20:59:00.002+08:00

i am truly proud of myself. when it comes to internet, i'll be the first one to offer myself. tp only to those matters that im interested to know je lah kan.

baru-baru ni, one of my guy friend from diploma days buat blog and all of his housemates are trying to track him down. they asked me, i said i dont know. i lied. i know he has a blogger's account before but never on the blogging part. tapi dia tak active pun. and now, since everyone is searching for him...wait! mana tau semua tengah cari dia. thanks to my feedjit sebab track apa yang patut and that's where i found out apa yang tengah berlaku.

i truly understand why he keeps it as a secret. sebab kawan-kawan dia kuat nganjing *i cant believe that i wrote 'nganjing' hahha*. i wouldn't know about this guy's blog story if:

his friends didn't search for his blog. or maybe dia sendiri yang search. yang buatkan feedjit saya track dia.
my friend made a mistake. he drops a comment on my post that i wrote last year when i first found out that he is one of my followers. and now *5 mins ago* i checked on the post just to see his blogger's profile, tengok-tengok dia dah delete the comment.

so, dah obvious lah kan dia memang ada blog and dia tak nak siapa tau. well, dont worry boy. i wont tell them.

*one thing you should know about me. i am one kind of person who keep all my messages. be it wishes sent to my mobile, ym archive, idioms+online dictionary+scholarships that have been sent to my email.

and you should know that i have this one folder named "lrnj" in my email. lrnj stands for luahan rasa.nukilan jiwa. yeah, my previous title. i keep all the comments posted by readers in that folder. just so you know =) *

remy

2010-03-18T19:05:00.000+08:00

oh hai, remy =)

kelantan post for kelantan trip as an appreciation to kelantan people

2010-03-17T13:56:00.005+08:00

we (ayu and i) were not so sure of going to kelantan as we have accounting test, arabic quiz 3 and imlak as well as AIS's quiz.

and so we decided to go. once in a lifetime punya peluang. just go je la kan. bila lagi nak pergi kelantan dengan persatuan sendiri. so, yeah. we're off to kelantan at 3pm. pukul 1pm macam tu baru sibuk-sibuk nak packing barang.

friday 12/3/2010

- went off at 3pm

- arrived gambang around 5 kot. main bantai je time.

- duduk sampai lebam dalam bus. oh yeah, nasib ada bantal pink ku. bawak sekali to machang.

- 11++ arrived uitm mache. bla bla bla. daftar. discuss. 12 sharp sudah ada atas katil

saturday 13/3/2010

- woke up as early as 6:00am. ready by 7 for breakfast, sukan and LDK.

- tanah uitm machang lagi kecil dari uitm pahang tapi sebab diorang berbukit, maka nampak lagi besar. nak pergi breakfast, kteorg jalan kaki turun ke bawah. sebab menurun bukit, it was as easy as ABC. after lunch, we went back to our rooms to get ourselves ready for diskusi with their members of bachelor in accountancy, MEMBACC. so, it was kinda formal laa kan sebab discussion. masa nak balik bilik tu, we have to climb up like there's no tomorrow. usaha tangga kejayaan betul lah. sangat penat. sebab bukit sangat curam. and there goes my pungkuk jatuh tergolek dog kat bawah. sampai sekarang boleh rasa sakit nak panjat bukit.

- 2pm; we're ready to go for discussion. tapi kali ini bus datang;)) and after that, kteorg pergi jalan2 sekeliling uitm machang and balik kolej and siap-siap for malam kebudayaan.

- after the malam kebudayaan has it ended, we planned to go to waqaf che yeh but due to the news that we've just received that day, the plan was cancelled and we changed it to our supper activity pulak;))

sunday 14/3/2010

- ready by 8am. siap kemas semua. it was a school day for them. so, basically, kitaorang just makan breakfast, and pergi melawat library uitm machang. berkali ganda lagi best dari kita punya. and im pretty sure that our new library will be as beautiful as theirs as soon as it is ready to be used. and bergambar depan blok pentadbiran.

- singgah ke rantau panjang

- around 3 lucnch

- around 5 gerak balik jengka ikut terengganu

- around 2am sampai jengka.

- 3am sharp atas katil sudah;))

8am in the morning, off to class for presantation. sekian!

;))

*malas dah nih*

tapi yang penting semua warga MEMBACC sangat lah baik walaupun terpaksa menjaga and melayan karenah kitaorang pada hari-hari yang mereka sepatut berehat. thank you so much kelantan people ;))

-

2010-03-15T10:56:00.001+08:00

selamat mengantuk di pagi hari pada kelas kedua hari ini.

sangat mengantuk.kthxbai

merepek

2010-03-12T22:29:00.002+08:00

perjalanan ke machang sungguh tak best. Tidak, jangan salah erti pada perkataan-perkataan. Tapi,sungguh! Perjalanan ke machang sangat menguji jiwa.

PBL 2

2010-03-11T11:05:00.003+08:00

i read because i am lack of knowledge

i learn because i am in need of using the knowledge

screwed up on PBL 2 presentation today :(

miserable

2010-03-10T11:22:00.002+08:00

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no sardine+cheese sandwich for breakfast today =(

mineral water

2010-03-09T15:38:00.001+08:00

hari ini sungguh dan sangatlah panasnya. lagi lama duduk jengka, lagi hitam aku jadinya. hipotesis berguna. jika tak percaya. sila cuba.

banyakkan minum air.

rindu singapore. time tu hujan je. rindu kat abang tram 4 (itu yang sebenarnya.hahha)

sandwich sardine+cheese

2010-03-09T10:21:00.002+08:00

aku menjadi semakin annoying. Sangat not cool. Possibly sebab kau yang annoying. Dan aku cuma tak larat nak tahan. Aku pulangkan je lah balik. i had sardine+cheese sandwich earlier.and will always be the same for as long as im still here in jengka.

i love march as much as i love april

2010-03-08T21:00:00.002+08:00

and why is that? march will be the busiest month of the semester and april will be as much as the same. there will be test 1 and 2, quiz 1, 2, 3, 4 or berapa-berapa kau nak lah and assignments, presentations and all. april will be the final exams month. this is when everybody jadi panda.

but that's not the story

march 7, 2010

one of my besties' engagement day. to Lya Amilia bt Anuar. seriously, sorry that i cant make it. it's the end of the week and i dont have transport to come back to jengka. tu satu hal. satu hal lagi, aku memang tak boleh balik jumaat tu because of arabic night. really sorry but awak cantik okay.

march 8, 2010

another besties' birthday. happy 23rd birthday Norazri Othman. sudah tua. my turn gonna be sooner. takpa fara, age is nothing but a number. at some point, kita memang akan rasa kita dah tua. tapi, on the other side, you'll have this feeling of "aku dah dewasa sebenarnya". what ever it is, just think positive. walau kadang kala positive is the new negative. =)

im off to kelantan this weekend.

off to PwC on april 6, 2010.

and between dates, there are just too many quizzes, tests, assignments, projects to be done. terima kasih. i love robot life

chow off macam tu je?

2010-03-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

pointing fingers is the best way to make yourself out of the track.

tahniah!
kau menyusahkan orang lain.

entah

2010-03-07T22:40:00.001+08:00

too many reasons
too many excuses

but

life has to go on.

no matter what.

another movie review : perempuan berkalung sorban

2010-03-07T13:14:00.003+08:00

http://id.wikipedia.org/wiki/Perempuan_Berkalung_Sorban

another movie review. satu aliran dengan Ketika Cinta Bertasbih dan Ayat-Ayat Cinta. cerita tentang perjuangan seorang perempuan. seorang wanita yang ingin kebebasan tapi masih dalam aliran. yang mahu berpandangan luas tapi tetap disekat. macam-macam dugaan datang.

and again, sedih cerita ni. sila tengok if ada masa terluang yang rasa-rasa dah tak tau nak buat apa tu.

p/s: kepada lelaki, jangan sekali-kali perlaku isteri seperti dalam cerita ini. seperti wataknya si samsudin. ai tak kenan yu~

from bandung with love

2010-03-07T02:14:00.002+08:00

"put love in everything you do and you'll get love from the rest of the world in return" -vega

i have to admit this. im afraid to fall in love. im afraid to be cheated on. i just don't like goodbyes. (i hate any kind of perpisahan). lagi-lagi to the so called cinta mati. and that's the reason why i prefer to wait for the real right one. sangat takut okay because i know myself. i know how i'd handle things. tapi, orang selalu cakap, belum kena tak tau macam mana rasanya. experience kan? tapi i don't think i need that. entah lah. let the time decide.

biasanya kita akan dengar lelaki yang curang. tapi this movie tells you the other way round (btw, the girl works as a radio announcer for some sort of love segment). it started out as an experiment, actually. tapi jadi lain pula. go and watch the movie. i can't believe myself that i cried watching this movie.

okay, generally. kita susah nak minta penjelasan orang if orang lain buat salah pada kita. salah pada mata kita lah kan. tapi kenapa bila kita buat salah yang mungkin pada mata kita bukan salah langsung dan tak diminta penjelasan, kita mesti akan bertanya, kenapa dia tidak minta penjelasan. manusia suka pointing fingers kan? kenapa pada asalnya tidak mahu jujur. jujur is the key word, babe!

*fine. cerita ini ada kejujurannya. mungkin terlambat sedikit. tapi perlu ke goodbye kiss tu?(emosi!)*

(not telling the whole world that i am jujur, though. tapi im a big fan of jujur. and even if im not, i will tell the other party sooner or later and take consequences into consideration too. kalau bakal menyakitkan hati sendiri, buat apa kita tunggu lama-lama untuk memberi jujur kan?)

a qoute to be remembered:

kita semua pernah merasakan cinta yang pernah membawa kita ke tempat yang tertinggi. kita lalu merasakan yang namanya terjatuh kerna kesalahan kita sendiri. kita tidak mati, tapi lukanya membuat kita tidak bisa berjalan seperti dulu lagi

*anything can happen in 6 days. it is one of the stages in the process of life. whatever it is, life has to go on. kita suka take things for granted, kan? lumrah manusia*

goodnight, world. jangan pernah ada yang selingkuh atas kesilapan kecil diri sendiri.

arabic night

2010-03-06T13:03:00.003+08:00

first, i curi-ed someone else's photo kat internet. nak credit tapi tak tau siapa punya

second, it's for our arabic night (as stated laa kan)

third, it was yesterda (as stated jugak)

fourth, gambar pakai purdah, hampir semua perform pakai purdah.

sekian, terima kasih.

*it was a fun night though

im off

2010-03-03T23:18:00.001+08:00

kau berubah saat kau mengenal dia.

nuff said!

doa bulan tiga.

2010-03-01T11:13:00.004+08:00

homaigod. today is the first day of march. we just left february yesterday. he went away for a month now. kuat ye, fatin. i know you memang sangat kuat!

another 21 days is his day. but he's gone forever now. there will be no text message wishing happy birthday to him in my sent folder and there will also be no text message wishing for my birthday from him in my inbox nanti. this is one of the reasons why i will always appreciate whatever wishes people gave to me. raya-s, exams, birthdays. semua ada dalam folder since i was in part 1 diploma. ni dari sudut pandangan i. apa lagi dari sudut pandangan his other half. lagi seksa. tersangatlah seksa :(

my first birthday celebrated in jengka was one day late. they threw water baloons. time tu baru balik from library. joy, fatin, syaza, kei, dir, erin, whoopa were there. and fatin time tu pun still mourning over her mother who's just passed away a month before. and he was the one who gave her strength. and now her strength has gone. and that worries me the most. i know he is in a better place. good for him. and i also know that fatin accepted the fact that his gone but just imagine, he's with her like all the time. he's her breath. he's her soul. kita boleh nampak fatin gelak, senyum, and whatnot, tapi deep down inside, dia just cant get over it. susah kot. nyawa dia. and fatin, i know you won't read my blog. but, if you do, ini lah yang buat i risau sangat. you deserve to be happy. tapi on positive thinking, Allah sayang dia and Allah sayang you juga. Dia akan beri ujian kepada orang-orang yang Dia sayang. so, please consider yourself lucky ye yang.

i will never forget you. and i will never forget for what i have done to you. obviously yang jahat-jahat. and the most important thing is i will never forget what you have taught me for all this while. thank you so much!

i hope march will be a better month for everyone. amin~

kasih sayang itu indah. jangan persiakan

2010-02-28T00:53:00.003+08:00

aku punyai definisi terindah bila berbicara tentang hidup
cuma, jangan mulakan
tidak mungkin mampu aku terangkan
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aku ini tidak dilahirkan sempurna seperti kamu
aku ini tidak dilahirkan lemah gemalai seperti kamu
aku ini tidak dilahirkan secantik rupa seperti kamu
aku ini tidak dilahirkan untuk senang dipunya seperti kamu

aku mengaku
aku tidak seperti lainnya
aku tidak seperti orangnya yang berumur 23
aku bahagia apa adanya
aku tidak benci diriku kerna tidak sepertinya

aku ini jauh lembutnya
dekat galaknya
berdekah gelaknya
happy-go-lucky perangainya
waima apa, aku dibesarkan dengan sempurna

tidak bermakna aku ini bukan perempuan
cuma aku tidak se-ladies dirinya

tetap hati kecilku akan bersuara;

bila keindahan musnah sekelip mata
bila berbicara tentang keluarga
bila ditanya pelbagai perkara

anak itu pemberian dari tuhan
rezeki terindah dari tuhan
jagalah dirimu wahai perempuan
jangan dibuang apa yang perlu disimpan

p/s:aku mahukan apa yang aku mahu
tidak mungkin semua perlu tahu
cuma dia yang akan ambil tahu

*bukan semuanya tentang diri kita, kan?
goodnight, love!*

pendek. sangat pendek

2010-02-27T03:31:00.001+08:00

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seinci lagi mahu tiba sang bahagia
lantas ditepis keras sang celaka.

mid term break till now

2010-02-25T16:22:00.002+08:00

mid term break was so-so. merehatkan kepala. lepak-ed with cousin and sister. it was nothing actually. bunyi je macam something. but the whole week duduk subang. buat assignments, notes and whatnots.

on sunday, macam biasa. went back to jengka. class nak start pulak kan. but there's no class on monday sebab we have to go to shah alam on that day. best kan? went back to jengka on sunday and came down all the way from pahang back to shah alam yang hanya mengambil masa more or less 10 minutes dari rumah. pfft. sakit belakang. tapi terkenang barang banyak, layan kan je. we went to the CCM at plaza alam sentral. and met the multimillionnaire, en zulhisham ayob. dia ada advertising company and rumah dia sangatlah cantik.

tuesday; jadual class asal - CRG 8-10, MAF 10-12, QMT 2-4. crg cancelled sebab dah pergi CCM the day before. qmt pun sebab prof have to go to kuala lipis dengan pengarah. tengok tanah uitm katanya. tinggallah maf satu-satunya. setakat presentation yang tak dapat markah pun. should have ponteng the class and balik straight after CCM kan.

due to unpredictable weather yang kejap panas, kejap terlalu panas, kejap mendung but never hujan, it got me pening-pening whole day. dari petang selasa till rabu malam. pening non-stop okeh. but the best part was i decided to come back home on wednesday. tidur sampai lebam. buat assignment yang nak kena submit hati sabtu.on tv yang ntah apa-apa ceritanya, and tidur, tidur and tidur. really. takda benda nak buat.

duit macam air. balik jengka. then turun kl. then balik jengka semula. and turun kl semula. sangat senang hidup.

*sebenarnya dah tak tau nak cerita apa. it's been a week since the last time i wrote something here. and oh, sila jangan main gila dengan cuaca. take a good care of yourself. kita tak nak sakit datang. and jangan lupa redoxon. minum bila rasa dah nak sakit.*

to cik nadirah yusof

2010-02-25T16:17:00.001+08:00

hoit mek. aku tak tau pulak ada new blog. aku tau followers aku dah kurang satu and it was you. aku ingat kau tutup terus ah. nasib gua bijak, bai. *aku remps sekarang ber-bai bai ni.hahah*

monday

2010-02-18T02:25:00.002+08:00

i went to visit cik fatin nadia on monday. yes, sangat lambat. we were waiting for our friend from kuantan and terus pergi sekali.

there are reasons why i can't call fatin or visit her earlier.
1. im not ready. im not suppose to be ready pun. i just have to go and show my support. but then, i just cant see fatin lemah. dan saya juga tahu yang fatin dikelilingi ramai orang yang lebih rapat untuk menenangkan dia.

2. i called her the night i was informed by my friend but ended up crying like hell. its me. not her. she's good at playing the cool character and that worries me the most as i know that she is not okay. but she's trying to accept the fact and redha with the fate. this is her second. first, ibu. and now, anaz. so, dari pengalaman ibu saya tahu macam mana fatin hadapi anaz. so much pain tapi have to go on.

3. again, i did call fatin. reload celcom semata-mata nak call fatin lama-lama. but then, bila fatin cakap "hello, fara", i started to cry(again). just because that she was so cool at that time(malam) tapi tidak masa petang tu.

saya sangat sayang fatin. walaupun saya selalu menyakiti fatin. she will always be there when im in need. tapi saya selalu buta. budak kan. bodoh lagi. saya anak bongsu. suka ikut kepala sendiri. dari part 1 dulu pun saya selalu berlagak tough sebab konon-konon tengok fatin lemah tapi the real fact is she is tougher than me. dia dah tunjuk banyak kali. tapi saya selalu buta.

she just woke up when we arrived. called her earlier tapi fatin pulak bila dah tidur. kadang-kadang je dia perasan phone calls.

tapi, what can i conclude kat sini, she really is one hell of a tough lady. tipulah kalau tak menangis. akan tersentuh juga hati bila teringat kenangan. fatin sangat kuat. and sekarang dia teruskan business yang sama-sama mereka buat di seksyen 7 shah alam. LITTLE KIOSK. kat tasik katanya. tak sempat pergi hari tu sebab tak bukak lagi. hopefully, one day dapat pergi.

and went to arwah shahnaz's place as well. jumpa lah kaklong Jaja, Aunty and of course Qarleif Qaddafi. he's so adorable. mula-mula blushing. lama-lama keluar dah perangai dia.

to fatin: terima kasih kerana kuat. saya hanya mampu hantar message je sepanjang saya terlambat. sorry for that. mungkin sebab saya masih rasa bersalah sebab lambat tahu pasal cerita ni. itu yang nangis lebih. just so you know, i cried not entirely because of shahnaz. tapi sebab saya terlebih risau tentang anda and tak dapat bayangkan how are you gonna live w/out shahnaz. but you proved me wrong. anda sangat kuat! thanks fatin sebab kuat. love you more than you know!

pergi

2010-02-04T22:06:00.003+08:00

done by abg ikhsan. one of anaz and fad's closest friends. more to abang sebenarnya coz depa have special definition of friendship and that makes them so special.

goodbye my friend

2010-02-04T02:50:00.001+08:00

to encik anaz,

saya tak pernah lupa dan tak boleh pun nak lupakan awak. saya tau ini sangat menyiksakan, tetap akan saya cuba untuk lepaskan awak pergi :(

Shahnaz Fadhli

2010-02-01T22:40:00.006+08:00

Shahnaz Fadhli aka anaz passed away on sunday. nearly 5pm.

he's someone close to my bff, Fatin Nadia. and to anaz, may you rest in peace. Allah loves you more. thank you for being such a wonderful person i've ever met. wonderful abang i suppose. and from feedjit, you sendiri tau yang ramai orang sayangkan you. sungguh tak di sangka-sangka you pergi seawal nih

to fad, im really really sorry for your lost. i cant forgive myself for being the last person among us to know this news. im sorry sangat-sangat. i jumpa you weekend ni ye sayang. hang in there!!

my deepest condolences to fatin and arwah's family..

Al-Fatihah

frustrated mungkin

2010-01-25T15:39:00.003+08:00

menangis aku sendirian
mengalir laju air ini
tapi hanya bayangan mata
kerna tidak mampu sendiri

khabar itu sungguh mengejutkan
khabar itu sungguh menghibakan
khabar itu sungguh menyakitkan

pedih.
memang pedih.

pabila hakikat itu hendaknya
berbeza sekali dengan harapannya.

my new baby season 2

2010-01-18T23:09:00.003+08:00

kesinambungan kepada ini:

i still love my baby buffy. will always be. cuma sekarang dia sudah bertambah adik beradiknya. which makes me love them more than yang sekarang. sorry buffy :(

this is the new one. blue color. but i dont want this. i want its adik down here..

comel kan???oke. pink is sooo not for me. tp ada sesetengah pink itu sangat comel yang takde siapa leh deny that.

yang ni pulak latest punya model. soooo nokia daun. patut gak beli ni. baru laa hp daun ku ada teman;))

sekian sahaja laporan external harddisk;p

hello..is it me you're looking for?

2010-01-13T17:06:00.007+08:00

howdie people?

been busy with stuffs. so yeah, sorry for the short hiatus. *padahal kau online everyday kot* . i know that i've promised to upload new pics of the new buildings. ada tuh ada. still dalam phone tapi tak banyak. was planning to make a my-journey-to-the-new-blocks-video. but then, tak sempat. thought of making it next week! *sila muka happy ye masing-masing*

it's a once a week punya benda oke. it's on tuesday, 10-12 and 2-4. 10-12's for finance which most of the them are putting their efforts to change the schedule to wed sbb ada yang clash and that class takde projector pun. so yeah, there goes a chance.

and now, there is just 2-4 class left. it's statistics.

but, because of some reason, the lecturer decided to change the second class of statistics to new class with projector and 2 whiteboards since the first one has none. tp that penyusun class guy changed both of our classes.

so, meaning to say that, there will be NO MORE class dekat bangunan baru. so sad:( *sila buat muka putus harapan balik*

TAPI!!!
kelas finance tuh tak confirm lagi dapat tukar;))
so, kena laa belajar kat situ before dapat tukar. akanku gunakan peluang sebaiknya;))
*sila senyum lebar semula*

till then.

good reason

2010-01-11T10:23:00.002+08:00

i know i have them to keep me strong. i know i have them to give me strength. i know i have them to rely on. and i also know that they are not mine.

i cant keep them forever though it has always been me who is still living in my own world of sticking 'us' together. and to add some points, i did not make new ones. silly me. because they are the ones that i trusted the most. no matter what.

but i just have to accept the fact that they are not mine.

and

one day, im gonna lose them pun.

my little january

2010-01-09T17:28:00.003+08:00

i was looking forward to start this whole new semester and named it as 2010:revenge of the fallen. or was it rise?im not sure my self.

im in part 6 now and there will be 2 more sems left. next semester will be off for internship and will continue the last semester here.

i came back to jengka on sunday. supposedly on saturday but let's just say that i need my subang friends more than my jengka life. after all, im not going to get myself registered to the hostel pun.

saturday night, when we were so busy buying things for my school days, i received a text message saying that my juniors that were suppose to moved in with us had registered themselves to kolej. the reason we're looking for new housemates was that we cant afford to pay a rm800 house per month with only 4 people living in it. so, yeah, there goes our chance to live independently and now, im stuck to those uitm rules again. im 23 for god's sake. and how dare you juniors did that to us. nak mampos ke apa? *oke. cakap aku kat sini memang lebat. nasib aku tak tau muka kao orang. but then, satu hari korang akan dapat balik apa korang buat. if it's not from me, then it will be from anyone else*

so, macam orang bodoh. came back on sunday. pack things up. and moved to kolej. TINGKAT EMPAT for god's sake. perempuan tu macam bodoh kan tak fikir hati perasaan orang? dia main dengan banyak pihak. how old are they,btw? if 16 years old boleh faham lagi sebab bodoh lagi. ni dah tua beb. belajar kau biar dah degree tapi bingai.

jengka is my place from the very beginning. did my diploma here and now degree. and they are progressing. the new buildings are ready to be used. quite cool gak. rasa macam luct.

more pictures are coming up. nak upload al-farabi *the new library/DK/i-dont-know* but then baru perasan tak transfer lagi.hehhe.

tp yang tak best pasal building baru is that depa punya whiteboard 1 je. lecturer kan banyak menulis. nak suruh tulis kat dinding kah? and projector tu pun takda. aiyoh.

and

student dah tak boleh park kereta kat depan blok i/j. kan memenatkan namanya tu sebab katanya nanti lecturer tak cukup tempat nak parking kereta. *nasib aku takde kereta*

till then.

010110

2010-01-01T11:02:00.002+08:00

macam tak percaya je kan dah new year? And i like the number,010110,macam some sort of computer code. ↲↲Happy New Year 2010 to you!!↲↲and owh,im turning 23 this year but alhamdulillah evrythg went well last year and hoping for the better throughout this year.amin.

kettle : cerek

2009-12-31T00:52:00.008+08:00

yo!ada apa dengan "cerek" dulu benci kini kau "kerek". hehhehe. suka-suka tukar lirik kan.

ok. this particular cerek or kettle down here . its an electical kettle. the one that i've been using for the rest of my life without knowing that they were started with the stove one. oke. itu tipu because my nenek is using stove kettle. but, this is what i use for all my life.

cerek elekrik

but since the economy is not so good now (it has been a year, kan?), my mum decided to change our lifestyle. back to the old school. we are now using the stove kettle. much more easier and of course, save up a little bit on TNB bill.

this is another one of electrical kettle. saje letak because its red;))

this particular stove kettle down here is the one that im using right now.the same colour. the same figure. the exact same thing. kalau dulu bila air dah masak and dah dekat sejuk, boleh tekan-tekan je. but with this, its a nightmare. sebab bila dah sejuk it means you have to re-heat it all over again. itu sudah membazirkan gas namanya. i just don't like it maybe because it sounds so loud when the water reaches so called 100 deg celcius. yeke? confirm? tak lebih? taruk garam sikit~hahhaha

its nearly a year now and it started not to make the noise dah. and i really missed that. something went wrong and we dont know how to fix it. so, bila air dah masak, selalu agak-agak masa je. please come back to normal!!i really miss the sound-of-kapal-honking-in-the middle-of-the-road of yours

please come back to normal!!! your sound helps abang belakang to be ready whenever we go to dapur. hahhahaha.bodoh

edited: punyalah aku sayang kau sampai kau makan aku balik. tadi petang masa tengah masak, lupa pula tadi dah masak air and buat tea semua. then nak buat air asam jawa, malas nak pakai air paip so pakai air masak instead. memanglah aku cuci tangan aku yang berasam jawa tu dengan air panas. memang cantik lah warna jari-jari aku kemerahan. mental sungguh!

and to cik nyssa and cik farah sofia, remember the thing that i said im not gonna have the chance to own it?

now, i own one;)). kita dah boleh sep sep dah..

december post

2009-12-29T19:29:00.004+08:00

dont you just love the title??;)))). well, i really do *in case if you dont la kan*

okay, as usual, this will be a rojak post that starts with english with campur in the middle of the story and malay at its end. biasa sangat dah.

havent updating the blog in a proper manner since early december and now, its coming to an end already and still, takda proper post. so, ive decided to write abour my december life.

*oke, sekarang dah datang malas nak update*

starting with family vacation on 4th till 6th december at singapore. it was raining all along but we had fun though. thought of coming back home early to celebrate abah's birthday on dec 6. tapi we were caught in traffic jam kat bukit jalil. *went there by coach*

and december is a happy month for working people, i suppose as there are 2 or 3 public holidays on friday. keputeraan Sultan Selangor - dec 11. maal hijrah - dec 18. christmas - dec 25. and next week on jan 1 or new year.

went to pavilion for another family outing on dec 17, kot laa. tak ingat pulak. just to exprience the "snow" they'rre having to celebrate christmas.

*seriously, dah naik malas sangat nak cerita*

oh, before semua orang obses sgt dgn fb, fs was the most "in" thing. so, knowing that i love to see good pictures, beautiful ladies and macho macho men *well, of course laa gambar mereka*, colours and what not, i've this feeling of "stalking" them by add them as my friends tho we dont know each other personally. they were my friends back at the fs era *mcm fs dah outdated sangat pulak kan*. and now that fb is the in thing, they chose to terminate their fs' accounts. so yeah, there i go terkapai2 tak dapat tgk beautiful creature lagi dah. and i also sent them msgs to say that i add them because i just love to look at their beautiful pictures and all *ini sgt merepek but wth, i just love to see happiness".

mula-mula dulu i just love to see sharifah ervinna's pics. then, nadzrah kamarudzaman and friends. najwa mahiaddin is nadzrah's bff okeh. then vivy yusof. long after that i met her at OU. and i was like "ini perempuan cantik dalam fs tuh". and again, i sent her a message. tp dengan rendah dirinya, mereka reply and tak berlagak langsung. diorang bukan artis oke and sepatutnya akan rasa menyampah sebab ada orang macam aku hantar message.

sekarang dekat fb, again, found ervinna first, then nadzrah and baru-baru ini cik vivy yusof. try and search them. diorang sangat cantik and adorable. and cute.

and now, im addicted to vivy's blog. she motivates me somehow some ways. she's rich. she's pretty. she's adorable. she have a wonderful family tapi langsung tak berlagak. terlalu memuji orang yang tak dikenali langsung kan? well, that's fara. senang terpegun dengan orang if orang itu tau macam mana caranya.

oke, im off to read vivy's blog

*edited:
cik NYSSA!!!!!mana pergi hiatus lama-lama nih? btw, ada cerita. if jadi, i'll let you know. hint: tanduk setan merah biru.hahha

sekejap

2009-12-23T20:04:00.002+08:00

sekejap je kita dah nak masuk year 2010. which means, new semester is about to begin lah kan. tajuk for next sem will be " 2010:rise of the fallen "

there are just too many plans in my head but just too lazy to make them happen. takpelah. lantak pi je lah. im off to jengka in two weeks time. maybe on saturday, 2nd january. have to oke. bukan nak sangat balik. kena kemas rumah and etc etc. hate it but just have to do it.

they will always be my besties tho i dont really know what best friend means but then kita tak pernah ada satu gambar yang ada kita semua and sepanjang cuti ni tak pernah kita sempat-sempat keluar berempat. masing-masing busy kalah menteri. well, aku tau aku tak busy. cuma kadang-kadang masa tak sesuai. well, i dont have much time left. i wish there will be a great photo of us sebab aku ada plan nak buat something with the pic.
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cakap pasal wish, i love the beauty of colours, mood, peace, happiness. so, aku rasa macam nak lepak lama-lama till late and off to cyberjaya. duk kat jambatan terang tu. tapi macam takkan dapat je. mana nak cari kawan and teman?

again, satu harapan bakal musnah. wtv it is, just to let you know that im leaving very soon. so, cepat-cepat buat plan so that we can meet up for the first and last time before im off to jengka.

*as if korang baca pulak.
as if korang tau aku ada blog laa pulak kan*

kris dayanti;aku wanita biasa

2009-12-22T00:54:00.000+08:00

Aku ini wanita biasa
Bisa sakit luka karena cinta
Dingin sepi kerap menyapa
Air mata jatuh lukisan raga

Kadang ku kuat setegar karang
Kadang ku rapuh lemah liar merana

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih hatiku

Kekasih hatiku maafkan aku
Aku wanita biasa

Dingin sepi kerap menyapa
Air mata jatuh lukisan raga

Kadang ku kuat setegar karang
Kadang ku rapuh lemah liar merana

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih
Hatiku… maafkan aku..

isu sia-sia

2009-12-21T16:23:00.003+08:00

dunia ini berat sebelah
kita tidak mampu memiliki apa sahaja kemahuan kita

waima usaha setinggi langit
tetap tidak mampu mencapai
keinginan diluar permintaan kita.

segalanya terbataskan
segalanya telah tertuliskan

some things are just not meant to be yours

anang : separuh jiwaku pergi

2009-12-19T12:41:00.002+08:00

separuh jiwaku pergi
memang indah semua
tapi berakhir luka
kau main hati
dengan sadarmu
kau tinggal aku

benar ku mencintaimu
tapi tak begini
kau khianati hati ini
kau curangi aku

kau bilang tak pernah bahagia
selama dengan aku
itu ucap dirimu
kau dustakan semua
yang kita bina
kau hancurkan semua

benar ku mencintaimu
tapi tak begini
kau khianati hati ini
kau curangi aku

kau khianati
kau curangi aku
kau dustai hati

benar ku mencintaimu

lappyku

2009-12-18T23:17:00.000+08:00

baby ku is back on track. oh yeah!

KFC

2009-12-17T15:25:00.003+08:00

yes,KFC!

ada apa dengan KFC???

*pedulikan last post about my hiatus and will only be back after my lappy is oke*

its not a great news pun but somehow it will turn out to be one.

KFC IS NOW IN JENGKA!!!!!!!
how cool is that. tho kau dah muak nak menghadap kfc kat subang. tp one good thing for me to stay here in jengka a little longer is that i get to see the progress of jengka;))

updating (no updates pun)

2009-12-10T16:42:00.003+08:00

last post was on 3rd dec. a day before i went to singapore. and now, im back home. want to upload all those pics but then, something happened and up till now, i cant upload any of the pics just yet.

that 'thing' happened yesterday. but days before that, my lappy was with my mum. so cant go online lah kan. sakit betul hati.

laptop has this problem where the charger is so cacat. you have to betul-betulkan wire dia. and oh, the battery also went kong sometime ago. so i have to rely on the power supply. and that's the only source.

maka, semalam merupakan hari kematian charger laptop. and now, i cant do all the editing stuff, downloading and apa-apa je lah. and wireless rumah pun went gila because of the kilat-petir-ribut-nasib takde taufan-days.

apa-apahal, semua kena guna pc mak with my broadband (of course). semua kena settle sini. nak chat pun tak best. online fb pun tak best. apa entah lagi nak update blog. lagi laa tak best!

goodbye,love.
see you when i see you. (bila charger dah oke lah ye?)

off

2009-12-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

im off for a vacation starting tomorrow. and the best part is, takde excitement LANGSUNG!! passport pun entah mana-mana je letak. baju pun main tindih je ni. aiyoh. malasnya nak pergi!!!

bukan malas nak pergi tapi malas nak menggerakkan diri untuk pergi.

okaylah,
i'll leave you with james morrison's the last goodbye. i love this song. and i don't even know why. eh. i've told you before kan? that i love this song. ke tak. ke ye tapi indirectly? jap2. check this out.

okeh2.dah baca balik. not exactly laa. tapi i reeeaalllyyy love this song.

dah2. wtv

goodnight, love!

chicken wing//ayam goreng

2009-12-02T19:02:00.001+08:00

baru saya perasan yang nak goreng kepak ayam (chicken wing) adalah seperti membantu ayam exercise. sebab nanti ada saja bahagian kepak yang tak goreng. hishh. melecehkan!

unproductive day

2009-11-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

hari ni semua macam si*l.

and blog pun tercacat due to my stupidity.

sesiapa yang rasa nama dia ada dalam my "connection" sebelah kiri ni do let me know, ya. sakit otak betul!

ain't yours!

2009-11-29T22:50:00.004+08:00

kau selalu datang memberi bahagia
kau selalu datang memberi cahaya
kau selalu datang memberi gembira

tapi,
pada akhirnya,
ia adalah hiasan semata.

untuk dilihat, tapi bukan dipunya.

rawang

2009-11-29T21:19:00.001+08:00

oh,

hai orang rawang!!

;)

pain.pain!

2009-11-27T22:55:00.000+08:00

this pain is killing me.

mula-mula, as usual tengah cuti-cuti sem ni gigi mula la nak tumbuh lagi sikit.

sekarang, pening tahap dewa!!

busyness..lu tak mau go away kah?

2009-11-27T15:13:00.003+08:00

busy. busy. busy

tahap dewa punya busy!!!

on wednesday, i had dinner with my subang friends. its just the right time coz azri's here since i dont know when and nafis pun dah balik. so alang-alang nak jumpa amirah, anith and zurry semua (and of course izzy), izzy pun plan laa dinner. makang steamboat kita malam tuh. tapi saya sangat tak berbaloi-baloi sebab makan sikit je.

owh. earlier that day, helped mak with preparing dinner for rumah. acu ina and kak nurul nak datang. so agak penat since we started at 6pm. kena rush sini sana. nak siap lagi.

one thing about me is, if nak ajak keluar, kena bagitau atleast satu jam awal so that i can mandi and cuci rambut and siap-siap semua. nanti nak blow rambut lagi. gila kao aku nak keluar rumah dengan rambut basah? big NO NO!

and and and,
setiap hujung sem kita mesti ada gathering kan? tapi selalunya satu ni je laa saya dapat join. lepas tu mula lah bye-bye. semua kena chow gi tempat masing-masing. hehhe

khamis lagi lah penat. have to prepare everything for raya and yet nothing. sebab memang bila dah siap rendang and kuah kacang semua, tiba-tiba rasa macam takde selera nak makan. lepas tu, yang agak bangang, i thought yesterday was friday. sebab dok terkenang nak raya and nur kasih lagi apa lagi. so, siap sound abah suruh pergi sembahyang jumaat. buat malu sendiri je!

apa lagi eh?

oke. hari ni jumaat.

mak kejut pagi.
fara.kau baik bangun. kau ingat hari ini hari biasa?

yes.i totally forgot about raya haji! ampun deh~

pagi-pagi after sembahyang raya, paklong datang rumah. dan there will be more.
maka saya disini dengan baju buruk and seluar buruk hanya sempat curi masa sekejap ni and selebihnya masa untuk tetamu.

bye!
eh, kena tukar.
selamat hari raya, love!
;))

cuti sekolah

2009-11-25T00:34:00.004+08:00

as you all know, i've been very very busy since school holiday started. not sekolah menengah punya holiday tau but my semester break.

saya ni jenisnya akan balik rumah right after my last paper finished. siap-siap barang and terus chow. unless there's a reason for me to stay longer which kalau boleh i bagi proxy je ;p

been thinking, what makes a major diff between us and nenek-nenek kita. orang muda sekarang and orang muda zaman nenek. seriously, i dont know how to start tapi somehow dengan cara mereka buat mereka bukan macam kita. and yes, depa makan garam lebih dulu but their lifestyle sangat berbeza dengan kita. kalau sekarang, umur kita ni masih lagi sedang belajar atau bekerja. kita kenal dunia. kita kenal orang-orang. kita kenal perangai orang. kita harung macam-macam. kita stab belakang orang. orang stab belakang kita. sebenarnya stab is a mean word sebab bagi orang yang melakukan, dia takkan panggil stab sebab dia akan rasa dia betul melainkan dia betul-betul durjana. *ayat kau biar tak boleh bla*. and apa-apa yang kita buat akan dibaca, dimaki, ditegur segala.

tapi sangat berbeza dengan orang lama. (trying to be more general sebab kebanyakan orang lama sebegini). mereka menamatkan zaman bujang pada umur yang agak awal dan ini me-limit-lan pergaulan. so, semua tingkah laku yang agak mengjengkelkan tidak akan diketahui sebab tiada siapa nak tegur. jadi sampai la ke tua bawa perangai.

tak tau la sejauh mana kebenarannya. tapi saya rasa atas faktor kurang mengenal orang juga membawa kepada ketidakpuasan hati.

next thing that makes me think*hehhe.macam lagu*
family members yang lahir sama bulan.

kita akan over excited bila dengar dalam keluarga si polan, abang long sama birth date dengan emak. atau kakak, emak and adik semuanya sama birth month. sebab senang nak celebrate. senang nak faham each other. well the truth is, it is not. we do understand each other as a grown up human being. tapi kita tak selalu sekepala. tak tau lah orang lain tapi saya bercakap melalui pengalaman.

mak read intrend or Eh! mag few days back and there's about api, angin, tanah and air thingy. normally benda-benda ni related to anak keberapa. tapi dalam article tu dia relate kepada your zodiac sign.

and mak is aries and she's an api. mak lahir bulan april, btw. same goes to ijah, bulan april and same date! so ijah pun api.

fara is special!!heheh. and why is that? i was born on april 20. so, i could be aries or taurus. so, im both. if im taurus, i am a tanah, then. tapi if aries, api la jawabnya. and abah is api also. can you imagine having 4 apis in one roof? agak mental gak lah. tapi kami cool je;))

mula-mula agak terkejut sebab all the perempuans are api.(well, of course part of me is tanah). when i told my mum that i could be both, she said like this "..memang pun kau macam tanah sikit, tapi bila datang angin kau.....". hahhaha. i just cant help myself of being happy-go-lucky person yet bekeng.hhahah

maka, sanggupkah anda tinggal bersama begitu banyak api dalam satu rumah? jika tidak, rancang lah keluarga anda dengan cermat. jangan sibuk nak buat 1 birthday celebration sekali.

goodnight, world
;))

*mana love?dah hilang?hahha*

memberhentikan harapan.

2009-11-24T00:44:00.004+08:00

tahu apa maksudnya?

maksudnya berhenti berharap lah!
currently listening to the song. and makes me think deep. stop hoping. i mean, it's good in a way. tapi, the other way round, it kills you. very bad. and time tu kau nak nangis air mata darah pun tak guna.

and yeah,
how deep is that deep? tak deep mana pun. 2cm deeper than the surface je.
i cant think deep anymore. bagi situation. bagi impak. bagi perkara-perkara menjengkelkan. i need more of these. so that i can write. i need to write. i want to analyse. eh brain, start working laa. jangan fikir penat je!!!

and i need more time for myself :(

tajuk kita hari ini....

2009-11-22T21:08:00.000+08:00

my hair is no longer long and wavy. it's now short and straight-y;))